I totally just realized…I didn’t post for last week’s WI. Nonetheless…I stepped on that scale & saw a loss of 1.1, which just so happens to be what I gained the week before! I will say it was a nice surprise because I didn’t think I was going to.
As you all know…I’m on MFP & loving it. Despite my love, I found myself getting lazy with tracking. I think I almost felt embarrassed by what I was eating. I’m sure my friends & support system on MFP are not judging me, but still I found myself completing my diary for the day & then pigging out at night. Specifically after Rich went to his night job…so here I was binging at 10pm & of course, too embarrassed to put it on MFP where people could actually see it. That certainly wasn’t doing me any good. I came to the decision to go back to “hiding” my diary. This way – it was just me I had to face. I had no excuses & needed to make myself aware of just how many calories I’m consuming…especially those empty late night calories!
My post on my profile:
So…I’ve been slacking on tracking lately… embarrassed so to speak of my eating habits that instead of tracking & having my MFP friends see the crap I’m eating I just stopped tracking all together. I know “I” need to see it, so I’ve decided, at least until I get myself back on track – possibly after the holidays… I’m going to “hide” my food diary. The delusions I had of having an open diary to hold myself accountable just isn’t working. I need to be true to myself first – then maybe…just maybe I’ll let the world see once again. <3
Wouldn’t you know my amazing friends were all supportive & completely understood. I mean really…did I expect anything different from them?
Well, guess what…it worked! I tracked all the food I ate – even the two too many portions of an upcoming recipe review I’m working on. On that day I ate a total of 2,398 calories – my daily goal is 1,500! …oh, and there was no calories burned that day, so I was truly over by 898 calories!!! YIKES, but I NEED to see that. I NEED to say – Holy Crap! What were you thinking? Did you need all that food? Did you really want all that food? I went over my daily fat by 33 grams! I was under in my fiber by almost 20 grams! THIS is why I like MFP – cut & dry – right there in your face – like it or not – but like everything you have to track. And thankfully I did – wakeup call!
You’d think with a day like that I’d have a gain this week. Surprisingly I had a 2lb loss. I proceeded to step on & off the scale several times to confirm…and even e-mailed a picture to my PIC Kim because sometimes I think I can’t read my very clear digital scale.
And again….because no post is complete without a picture…and really, who wants to see a picture of my scale? (besides Kim when she’s forced to look…)
This is silly Natie. The caption for this is straight from his mouth… “Mommy I like these girls…” Oh Lordy – I’m in for it!