I’ve been in a different place lately.  A place I’m so tired of visiting.  The binge zone.  I don’t know what has caused it – stress, failure, depression, no clue, but I’m so over it.  My running has been a battle to pick up again.  I’m not sure if it’s the two months I was sick, the cold weather, what?, but I’m starting all over again & for some reason it is insanely difficult.

This past weekend was a fun one, filled with activity, but also filled with food.  LOTS of mindless binge eating late at night.  I even find myself questioning what I’m doing while I’m stuffing my face.  Hello…you know it’s not right, why continue?  No clue…but I do.  That gets followed up with lots of negative self talk…you know the “Why did you do that?”  “You never learn?”  “WTF is wrong with you?”  “The rate you’re going you’ll be fat forever!”

Blech…

So, I reached out to my PIC, Kim.  She’s always talking me off the ledge & helping me set a plan of action, which is what I need.  We’ve been working out and even though my running is soooo not what it used to be, I’m trying to stay positive & think about what it will be again.

This morning in my e-mail was a wonderful link to Roni’s blog post – “The Screw-Today-I’ll-Start-Over-Tomorrow Mindset”  It amazes me that after all these years she’s still going through the same struggles as all of us just starting out – umm…or starting over.  I love that Roni is so real with us even after all this time…and success!